Long time no see.......

Or should that be long time no write? I haven't even looked at this tiny corner of the internet for almost 2 years! 2 years people!! That's crazy!!

I've recently returned to my youtube channel and figured why not return here too? I don't intend on running this blog the same way as I had hoped those many moons ago. My main "internet" joy lies in planners, organising and my home. So I think I'll mainly focus on these topics.  Then if anything personal happens to slip in then I'm ok with that!

So an update. I don't use my filofax as my everyday planner anymore but I do use them in a variety of other ways! My weekly updates will be in my Erin Condren.  Although as we all know that can change!

I'll give this little old blog another go for a while and see if I can get back in the swing of writing again. I'm quite enjoying the youtube so that may be my best forum but I will review that further in the new year!

Happy Christmas everyone!

My latest youtube video can be found here

Day 13 of blog everyday...

Day 13, Monday: Issue a public apology. This can be as funny or as serious or as creative as you want it to be.

I am very aware I've fallen behind in the blog everyday challenge. I've even skipped some. To be honest I've skipped some I can't write. Not at the moment anyway as the topics I'd want to use I don't think I'm ready to nor am I sure I'll ever be ready. I don't want to make a half hearted attempt at using another subject as that doesn't feel real to me.  Maybe one day I'll be able to but not just now.

One of those hard to talk about topics would be an apology. Except I already made it. Years ago I wrote the hardest apology letter I've ever had to write. Have you ever done something so bad you knew there was no apology good enough? Yet you still had to say it? I have and I did. I said my apologies to the people I loved and who would listen. To the one who wouldn't listen I wrote it. I don't think it was, or ever will be accepted, but that's ok.  I've learned that the hardest part is often accepting the apology from, and forgiving yourself. That I think I've done. 


So if you've been given an apology you don't think you can accept remember this. Accepting an apology and forgiving someone is not for them it's for you. Until you forgive people who have wronged you and let it go you'll never be over it. You can hold onto your anger and hatred but the only person truly affected by it is you. So forgive. It doesn't mean you have to forget, or even have any interaction with that person, but it does mean your heart can let it go.

I don't believe the person I apologised to has done this and it makes me sad. They won't know the peace that come come from forgiveness. I do. From both my family and myself and from God. And it feels good.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.....

Or in blog land it makes you even more scared?

I've been absent. It's true. I'm a bad bad blogger. I started writing this for me and then I worried about what I should write! I started to think about regular posts, titles, projects etc etc etc........ It scared me off and made me spend my free time (what precious little I have of it!)  as far away from this blog as I could!

Then I had a realisation. When you start doing something for yourself, regardless of who may see it, you should enjoy it! Seems obvious I know but it took me a while to really understand it.

So I was reading one of my favourite blogs in feedly, My Soul is the Sky, when she mentioned she had decided to follow the blog every day in May challenge. I was intrigued so I followed the link to the original post and found Storyofmylife. What a beautiful post! It felt like she was talking to me and easing my fears. So I figured why not give it a go? Now I may not manage one a day but I will try my hardest. I'm planning on doing a photo a day challenge too so May will be a busy month!

So fingers crossed everyone that I manage to write as many as I can and that it will help me find my groove in my little bit of the internet.